leah’s heart…

hahahahaha!

maybe, you’re all wondering why i started this blog with a laughter…

hmmmm…just because, i will be talking of something that never did i imagine of popping up while having a conversation class with one of my student..we we’re talking about relationships..he wanted to know how platonic love works, mutual relationships, one-sided love and blah-blah’s…wait ok…to justify our topic e, (mega explain ko muna sa inyo mga kababayan how this topic started in our class..)in the book we’re using, there’s a certain question: how do you define happiness, fulfillment, etc…then, how do you define love? so, platonic, mutual and one-sided bla-blah’s popped out of the blue while we we’re having our discussion..

then, the moment of truth came…i was asking follow-up questions when he suddenly said…"excuse me teacher, can i ask you a question?" i gladly said, "of course!"

now i regret that moment when i said "of course." hehehehe!

why?

here’s the reason…his question goes this way…i will cite how he exactly asked me the question…"you’re 27 teacher, why not yet married?" these are the exact words he uttered..(of course, i still remember it ‘coz his question still clouds my mind..hahahaha!) i remember how i reacted that very moment..silence covered my room while my mouth was shut…my student was smiling not knowing how hard his question to me was..oh, how i wish the bell rung right after he asked that question..but it did not! it was only half past an hour after we started our class..so, i had to answer him..not merely answering him but, to give him a satisfactory answer..or lies? hehehehe…

i thought only questions about numbers make me crazy..i was wrong…never did i foresee that i will be caught in this kind of situation..sitting in front of a foreign student who suddenly asks a question..the hardest question, so far..heeeeee! hhhaaaaaayyyyyy!

unfortunately for him, i just smiled and said, "it’s out of my priorities now..let’s go back to our lesson.." hahahaha! we moved on with our topic..but at the back of my mind, his question lingers..oh, wait…this happened two months ago..and, until now, i haven’t found the answer yet…but i guess, when i said to him that, "it’s not my priority" i meant it..

is it my choice to be single at this age? or is it my destiny? wait, what does destiny mean anyway? anyone….? i don’t really know..but, as i live everyday of my life, i enjoy being this way..is it my way of pretending or a self denial? i don’t know too..what i’m sure of is that, i enjoy talking, joking around about being single…and i love having conversations with friends and acquaintances who want to share their love stories be it a sad story or a happy one..and, m happy knowing thta my friends are madly in love..but, if they ask me, i just smile..or laugh! hahahahahaha!

whenever i get the chance to meet friends, we always joke about matters of the heart..one friend of mine makes it a point that, everytime we meet, asking about my lovelife is a side dish or an appetizer..hahaha! then, i also have a friend whom i enjoy having a laugh with when we talk about "love!" hehehehe…

why am i not yet married? how i wish i can really answer this question easily…

oh, and by the way…before he went back to Korea, he, without effort left me this statement…"teacher, please e-mail me if you are getting married or have a boyfriend.." as a reply, i said "yes! but, what would you do if that moment comes?" he said, " i will visit the Philippines again teacher.."

i just smiled and wished him the best of everything in his life…the first day i met him in my class, he was very shy and afraid to talk…i’m glad that, having class with him for two months gave him the confidence that we (esl teachers) aim to all our students…

he’s very much in love with his girlfriend and i really hope they end up together…that they will have a happy life as what he wishes me to be…