leah’s heart…

i wrote this blog for a friend…

i hope my friend can spare a moment of her time to read this missive for her…she’s on the stage of feeling emotionally down ‘coz of the thing called "love."

again? hay! yeah right…

hmmmm…it’s all about falling in love.."right love at the wrong time?" or "wrong love at the wrong time?" or, "falling in love at the wrong time and at the wrong person?" i don’t know really…

my friend,

i know that it’s a tough decision for you to put yourself into this kind of situation..falling in love with someone whom you cannot really call yours and whom you cannot be with ‘coz of million reasons..

but, as they say, you cannot choose the person to whom you would really fall with..’coz if we can, tears, loneliness, and despair would be useless..we don’t need these words in the dictionary..simply because it’s in loving that we all feel these kinds of emotions..rolled into one..duh!

we had a short talk and you said that, you know what you’re into and you know your place in him…but it’s easier said than done my dear…even if we say to ourselves that, we wont get hurt ‘coz we’re prepared for the consequence it may bring, but if we’re caught in the middle of reality, the pain sinks in…and the most painful part of it is that, you cannot question that person..why? because the commitment that you both have is just a plain "yes, i feel the same way." it’s not enough reason to hold on to..

"stupidity is next to falling in love." i uttered these words when we were talking..and i still remember that we both laughed on it..hahahahaha! malutong na tawa! buti nga di tayo kinatok ng mga kalapit natin e…hehehehe! sa lakas kaya ng boses natin e, alang nakarinig sa chenez to the max na usapan natin? hahaha! yup! being stupid is next to falling in love…even if the mind tells us that, we should not do it, our heart says "try it." take chances and you might as well be lucky to feel the joy that this feeling brings..but, taking chances with matters of the heart is always a complicated thing..we can never have a perfect smile. there will always be a time of pouting, crying and regrets..we learn from it ‘though..

days from now, you will be left hanging…but i know that with the short span of time of being together, you’ve had happiness in your heart..just keep it as a good memory my dear…don’t blame yourself for taking the risk of loving him..it’s just a matter of holding on and letting go of the feeling..you decided to hold on to it and so, take hold of it as long you can..don’t loosen your grip..but, don’t expect too much..prepare yourself for the worst scenario..things change and it excuses no one..

"it’s better to have loved and lost than to have not loved at all." as they say…i guess, you can have this thought in your mind..be thankful that, you we’re able to let the world to know how you feel..

whenever you feel so blue (or black..hehehehe!) your friends are just around to paste a smile in your face..if truth comes straight into your face and that person you care for finally says, "goodbye!" just smile and tell yourself, "thank you for the good times..maybe, we’re not really meant to be together forever..but i know in my heart that, we will both remember that once in our lives, we met each other."

hey! hug him tight…tell him how thankful you are for being around and for sharing you his comfort even if it’s only for a moment..

i guess, it’s not a question of falling in love for the right time or for the wrong time…not with the right person or with the wrong person..it’s a question of  accepting the reality that, we  always lose  someone or something no matter how hard we try to keep them..we can never control nor stop the time from changing..it’s the game of losing..

cry it out…

it will help…

then, smile…

finally, open your heart again…you deserve another chance…

always,

your friend

p.s….

to my friends out there who can relate to this, "loving and losing someone.." i hope i was able to make you smile even for a second and helped you tell yourself that, "i’m happy that i fell in love despite everything.."

same….

Sing me a song again, Daddy
Sing me a happy verse.
Teach me those clever lines you sang
As you carried me on your shoulders.
Sing me that hymn that you so loudly
Sang in church with mom.
Sing it again to me and fill me
With all your words of wisdom.

whew!
what a topic to talk about..what will i be talking about anyway..it’s my new haircut…when you tell someone about your haircut, what do they care?

others may say…
so?
pagan-anuk ngay?
paki ko?
buhay pa ba ang nanggupit ’syo?
ikakayaman ba natin ang bago mong gupit?

well, actually guys and gals..ala kasi ako masulat kaya itong gupit ko na lang ang pagdidiskitahan ko ha..pagtyagaan niyo na muna…e, medyo feel ng mga daliri ng lola niyo na magtipa ng keyboard ng computer kaya, eto mega kunwari e, sulat me ng ka-eng-engan sa blog…

if you’re fond of reading blogs from your friends blogs, and that includes me..i had this blog about "wawang hair." it talked about my reasons of having haircut..

now? i only have this simple reason..that is, i cannot stand it anymore..huh! big deal? not really…it’s just that, every morning, after having my regular routine such as taking a bath, brushing my teeth, preparing for work, it takes me a lot of energy thinking how to fix my hair…and, how to get rid of falling hair…hehehehe! yup! i’m having problems with falling hair…

i have problems (again?) of getting up early so, i rush on everything in the morning and that includes tidying up my room before leaving for work…one of my greatest mess? (hehehehe!)  hair all over my bed and floor! oh wait, also with the comb..i guess, girls, ladies have this kind of prob with their hair too..

i hope you do agree with me…’coz if not, i need to go to the doctor and, ask them what’s wrong with my sculp…hehehehe! i’ve tried using pantene hair fall control (plugging!) but unfortunately, can’t see the good effect of it…hehehe! so the best remedy? to have a haircut…that’s it!

sometimes, even if we wanted to stick to one thing ‘coz of reasons like, we grew up with it, or we’re used to it, we still end up changing the things we’re used to having…then, we start getting used to these new things again…

maybe, we can just forget about the irritations or hassles that these things may bring but, at the end of the day, i guess we have the choice to feel more comfortable with the new choices that we may have…

take the risk…
you may not look better than before with your new haircut..or, you may look like a celebrity with it..(hehehehe!)…whatever outcome we may have..the best thing is, we faced the challenge of changing what we’re used to look like…or in life, we were able to make a choice and that is, taking the step to take a risk…

that’s what total eclipse of the HAIR is all about….hahahahaha!
’till next time guys and gals….