leah’s heart…

have u watched a movie recently?

i just did last monday..it’s called “yes man!” and, it has left me things to ponder on..like what? like, when do we really say “yes!” and “no!”

probably, most have seen the movie already..did it tickle ur mind somehow? did it make sense? it was somewhat like same old movies-bein’ bored w/ur work & life in general, missin’ out time with friends and family ‘coz of ur busy sked, goin’ through the dilemma of divorce, & meeting a new romance in an unexpected time and eventually end up together..but what makes this movie of my interest?

read on..

it’s not just the funny side of it but more of the wisdom it has brought in me..saying “yes” means, u mean it..not just trying to please anybody or making a good impression out of it..there’s a great responsibility behind the word..

but, it’s not absolute ‘though..it can be a blessing in disguise..

like, u’d say “yes” just not to hurt someone or just to please but it turns out to be a good “yes!” it has resulted into something positive..

i wanna share something..both my cazin and aunt convinced me to join my cazin’s friends in going out..i declined from the invitation..but just not to make a fuss out of it, i said, “ok..”..i didn’t really want to ‘coz i’m kind of shy..(i’m really at my age of supposedly having the confidence  of going out with new guys and gals but, i really still feel shy..funny! but it’s true..) and aside from being the oldest, i might just be killing the fun with these young guys and gals..i don’t want to be the cause of possible boredom and i don’t actually know them that much..but, the fact that they’re my cazin and tita’s good friends here in Australia, i know their names..sherwin, desiree, rose-anne, and three more nice persons..(sorry, i didn’t get the chance to know their names..) rose-anne prefers to be called anne or anne-anne..how do i know it? it’s simple! we just clicked! sherwin loves smiling..we only have our his and hellos and a small talk but he never fails to smile..anne-anne is a soft-spoken gal who also dreams of sam milby and loves eating! hehe! and, desiree is also going crazy over koreanovelas and korean celebrities..they made me feel comfortable..these guys are really nice!

what more can i ask for? they’re like replica’s of me..but, only on the crazy and noisy  side of me..kkk..

maybe it’s too early to say but, i’d still say it..my vacation will be much more remembered ‘coz of them..

see? my “yes” turned out to be well and good..before, my “yes” to my aunt and my cazin was not actually meant but just to give in to what they’ve asked for..but, in the end, i enjoyed being with them..

i’ve been existing for almost three decades..(do the math pals! hehe!) and with this span of time, i’ve had uncountable “yes’s” and will still be counting..everybody does..

while i was watching the movie, a question popped up..-what really made me say yes to everything i had answered “yes?” was it because i meant it or was it just for the other party’s satisfaction and convenience..hhmmm..

we’re not just talking of the “yes” here..being human also means having the right to say “no!,” right?

come to think of it, learning to say “no” would also mean being honest to yourself and admitting that u cannot do everything..or not having the intentions of just pleasing anybody..

in a wedding, people expect the bride to say “yes.” but, there are instances when the bride says, “no!” then, you hear murmurs around, see those questioning eyes, and tears from the bride saying, “i’m sorry.”

my point? the “yes or no” answer is not a glued thing..it’s not about answering because it’s what’s expected or it’s the standard..

life is a game of “yes or no”..it’s a battle between both answers..u’d say “yes” u can either have a good or a bad result..same with saying “no.” making heads or tails on how should we answer “yes or no” questions thrown to us will neither be as easy as pie nor a cinch..it takes a lot of courage and mind work..

i think, we can make it a lot easier if we always have good intentions in choosing the “yes” or the “no” answer..

i’ve said “yes” a lot of times, had regrets in the end, and learned from it..i’ve hurt people when i said “yes” by making a promise but i wasn’t able to keep..i’ve said yes ‘coz i’ve meant it..but sometimes, circumstances happen..it’s out of our control..so we end up failing to keep the “yes” we’ve uttered..

the “no” answer? same as saying yes..i’ve said “no” then had regrets after it..i have the “should have” and “what if” in mind..

or sometimes it’s the opposite..

so, whether we say “yes or no” it boils down to one thing, we just have to be responsible with our answers..

it’s a make or break decision..

if it turns out to be against what we’ve expected, there will always be a second, a third, and a lot of chances..we can never run out of a “yes” or a “no” answer..

did i really say yes? yes…no…can i ask my lawyer please…hahaha!